Tomorrow Never Comes

i've not updated this blog for more than a week. the ROD proposal + NYAA thingy had kept me busy 24/7. 'thanks' to mr chan who has given me a false alarm of that ROD will be on comin friday and left me to cramp the 3-4 months time to complete the proposal within 4 days. i've even ordered the two plaques for e CIs and am suppose to collect them at some place which i'm still questioning over its existence. ordered thru internet and this is the consequence. need to pop up with $50 to pay for e plaques. and i don't even have e cash to chip in for my class jersey. then when everything was done and dusted(?), he told me that ROD is postponed to November. NYAA is another bomb la. no intention to criticize timo here. i wish that i have a week long of break from any npcc-related stuff. now u know why i felt like qutting since last yr. i didn't coz i am willing to sacrifice my life and time for the rest to study and do well for e sake of better future maybe? i rarely been recognised for what i've done. neh... forget it. once e juniors take over this *ehem*ing cca, i'm gonna burn the uniform. neh i'll contribute to pollution.

anyways... i'm wanting to buy a mouth/teeth guard. but i can't find the right time to even step out of the house for the moment being. and.... yup only that. and i need to see a doctor one day as i'm having a respiratory problem. also, my left ankle hasn't recovered. i think the damage lasts forever. i've been spending lesser time with my family, especially with my ill father. i don't even know the outcome of his dialysis sessions. my eldest sister is mad at me coz she had planned to watch a movie as a family but i wasn't always there. i hate myself. last time, my family was of a paramount value to me. but now... i'm now a shadow of my past. i wish i am the person i've used to be years ago, albeit e lack of maturity. my mom is juggling with two jobs to support the family. oh ya shit. i'm using the com! ok ok i'll stop here. btw, sorry 3J if i have to boycott the class jersey and shirt.

checklist:-
-mouthguard
-$50 (for the damn plagues)
-$25 (for class jersey)
-finding someone who is willing to lend me his 'money matters' wrkshts for photocopying (coz i don't have)
-complete NYAA SHIT!
-qada' solat (i've missed a lot of prayers)
-STUDY!!!!!